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[Jul. 10th, 2009|12:05 am] |
from the reading i had 2night. my soul spoke to me in symbols:)
1 green triangle 2 yellow intersection 3 red spiral 4 purple square 5 orange circle
spent a lovely 3 hours with a intuitive woman and her gorgeous cat! fascinating reading. i picked colors and shapes and we both interpreted them. powerful experience. |
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[Jul. 8th, 2009|01:20 pm] |
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| | abstracted | ] | making a very very abstract video with animal footage, fireworks, my poetry, self portraits. feel like expressing in more subCONCIOUS WAYS.
i went to a talk yesterday called "turn your faults into fertilizer". i made some nice connections and traded cards with people. i am getting an intuitive reading soon and also someone wants me to photograph them (they need a new headshot that "captures their essence" they told me and this person likes my work= yeah! and another person wants to interview me on camera. i am grateful for that.
grateful for the modeling job i have today for teen art class and also might have a piano lesson after that.
my mind is scattered all over the place right now. feeling a bit stressed- but trying to relax and take life one day at a time. the path unfolds.
some numerology person said 2009 is a year of endings. i feel an odd sense of things are shifting but i am not grounded in the changes and not sure where i am going right now. hopefully the intuitive reading will help me gain some clarity on my path in life. now 40 and going to be 41 in october! have a trip coming up soon. will be a good change in setting for a short while. new places to photograph.
sent my resume to one place. need to find more places to send it out too with cover letters etc. i really don't want a "normal" job- i need to find something that i can fit into personality wise. being a figure model for 17 years has trained me to be very quiet and day dreamy- i guess i've always been a day dreamer though and modeling work is perfect for someone who loves to stare off into space and think.
do i want to go full throttle in starting my own business with my multi media? OR do i want to find a job working for someone else freelance or set schedule and then do my creative projects on the side mostly just for the expression and joy of it? i wish i was more clear on what i wanted. i fear success and failure both. i have much inside me that wants to express itself- but i am learning to be more self contained here for the time being...
i need to figure out what other roles i can play. i like volunteering at the zoo- but i admit i am very quiet verbally in general and relate very well to the animals but not so sure how good i am at connecting with the humams on a personal level. i do ok- but the introvert in me finds it draining to be really social in groups. but then i love being interviewed and asked questions i know the answers to! so i truly am a mix of introvert/extrovert i suppose.
i feel very abstract 2day.
ok end of stream of consciousness writing. |
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|01:17 pm] |
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JOHN PILGER I have lived in the UK 4 most of my life & I have used the National Health Service & regard as a treasure http://tiny.cc/bzYLC |
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[Jul. 5th, 2009|07:29 pm] |
i am not even sure i believe in astrology but i find this comforting for today:
SHANNON Sun Sign: Scorpio October 25 Your horoscope - Week of July 6, 2009 The big news is the Lunar Eclipse in your communication zone. Eclipses have a way of helping you move on. They prod and poke you into taking the next step on your journey in life. You may have very intense feelings about one project; however, over the coming days you may come to the realization that you have to drop it. It may be impractical or it could be a matter of timing. By letting go, you'll leave space for a much bigger idea that will have a greater impact and create even greater success. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2009|03:52 pm] |

one of my favorite quotes by martha graham
"There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique, and if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium; and be lost. The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, not how it compares with other expression. It is your business to keep it yours clearly and directly, to keep the channel open. You do not even have to believe in yourself or your work. You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction whatever at any time. There is on a queer, divine dissatisfaction, a blessed unrest that keeps us marching and makes us more alive than the others.”
and another quote i love by helen keller:
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure." Helen Keller |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2009|08:50 pm] |
# i do like feeling the eNeRgy of large crowds at performing aRt events-i totally dream of being on stage-have done some of that and like it. half a minute ago from web # telling crowds what 2 do is NOT MY FORTE i tend 2 be gentle- but i did pretty well helping maintain order- enJOYED the MuSiC ♫♥. 2 minutes ago from web # did another night of crowd control for the ♫♥♫♥♫♥ Emmylou Harris, Patty Griffin, Shawn Colvin & Buddy Miller concert! fun volunteer work. 4 minutes ago from web
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